2 posts from May 2009

i feel... what's the right word... uplifted? happy? hopeful.
i feel hopeful.

why?

i don't really know. i'm just so tired of focusing on the bad or the unknown. it's so draining. instead, i'm going to appreciate the things that i have... or don't have. i just feel like the summer is a time of transition. or maybe even a time of reflection.

but, i'm encouraged. my best friends are planning to give me a birthday party at pf changs.
i'm also encouraged for the people i don't get to see often and the chance to build new relationships.
i'm not so encouraged by having to find a new job. (long story) but, i'm eager to see how God will bless that aspect.
i'm not encouraged by my grades in school... but again... God's plans... we'll wait and see.

i just want this to be the best summer ever. and not for the cliched... "i met this boy." or "i grew boobs." sorta thing.
i want to be transformed (spiritually) i wanna use this time that i have... and it's a lot of time! to really focus on my relationship with God and with my brothers and sisters in christ.

but in completely unrelated news... i got a kitten. his name is toby. he is ADORABLE. he cries a lot, and i'm scratched to death, but he's a baby.
and everyone loves him (if not a bit afraid.).

until the future... later days.

Tobyyyy

I didn't write any entries for the month of April... shame on me.

Not much has been going on. My sleeping pattern has changed, and I don't know why... but I'm waking up at six and seven in the morning.

I feel so.. blaaaaaah, right now. Heh. I can't wait for Beachstock. I'm so excited, man. So excited.