28 posts from 2007

I keep losing everything.

First my camera, then the memory card, my phone, and then my thumb drive that had my papers on it... so I am attempting to write it all from memory... I wouldn't mind if the paper weren't do tomorrow. I think I just might finish it in the morning and hand it in late... I have to give my teacher two papers, because I'm really suck at turning in things on time.

And I feel like I'm going crazy. CURAZYYYYEEEIREKDFJ!

Life could be going better. I still have tons of homework that is waiting to be done. I wish homework were asexual so it could do itself. I'm still trying to find a new job. I feel like it is all somewhat futile. Gosh I hope not.

Some Tuesdays ago I saw Motion City Soundtrack. They're my favorite band, but some serious drama went down. Somewhat taken too seriously.. it has nothing to do with the band. Just some choices I made that night. I'm really tired, but I cannot sleep, because I have this horrible fear that I won't wake up.

I've been freaked lately of death, and it's natural, but it's such a stupid inconvenience. I tried my best to spell inconvenience without the aid of Mozilla Firefox, but I failed horribly.

Anyways I cannot wait for winter break. It seems as if this semester just won't end. I'm hoping I passed all my classes. I just cannot stand getting C's... it's so painfully average. I need some better studying skills.

Well, until the future... later days.

I am feeling so trapped and suffocated right now. I need some sort of release, because there's nothing to look forward to. I just want to not do anything. Not go to class, not study for stupid tests, not go to work. I don't feel like doing anything but wallow in self-pity.

It's pretty pathetic, but I hate feeling this way. I'm so pressed for time. How am I ever going to get all this stuff done, and then make it to work in time. I think I just might quit Quiznos. I know I shouldn't quit unless I have something to fall back on, but I'm barely making anything. I can't even pay my phone bill. It's not worth it, working two four hour shifts in a week.

I think I'm just going to put in my two weeks notice, and pray to God that I can find something better. Because this isn't good for me.

I have a test in Philosophy tomorrow and a speech for Public Speaking, and I haven't a clue to what I'm going to do it on. It's informative, so I don't know... I just hate this feeling.

This has been probably one of the most stressful weeks of my life. I can't seem to do anything on time, and it's really taking a toll on me.
I keep grinding my teeth, and I'm feeling so stressed and aggravated right now. I don't know what to do. I feel like giving up all together, because nothing I do seems to be right.

My classes suck. All four of them. Philosophy is too ridiculous, and it's just a bunch of opinions, and I don't care about Socrates or Plato.

All he ever did was ask a bunch of questions, that he didn't even have answers to. Yeah, great Philosopher. and then Public Speaking, I guess I'm to blame here. Sure, I procrastinated, but, he barely gives any time to prepare. We do one speech, and then it's like, oh, next class these speeches. What in the world? At least when I took it last time, we got prepared, so there was really no excuse why the Speech wouldn't have been done.

So of course kids are going to fall behind.

English sucks, because my paper is two weeks late. And then math sucks just because it's math.
I hate feeling this way, and I tried praying... but I did not feel resolved.

Stereotypical gay guys are kinda annoying.

I shan't go on anymore, for fear I will then make a generalization of the whole gay community.

I'm excited, because for the next International Campus Conference will be in New Orleans. The first day we build houses and then we will commence to that conference feeling and be inspired. I was so inspired tonight watching the Disciples Today video. It makes me see my purpose and the greater cause, and I'm so excited and encouraged to be a disciple of Christ.
I cannot wait to do more things for Him.

I'm a week late on my English paper. I hate how I procrastinate at anything. It's just that it gets really hard for me to get motivated sometimes.

Last night, I heard some ruffling in the kitchen and then I went to my moms bedroom and told her that I think I hear a mouse. We were looking around, and the furry little things speeds past my foot. I shriek like some little girl, it was rather embarrassing after that, and I wish I hadn't, because my throat started to hope.

GOSH, I need a new job so bad. I got my first bill for the stinking cellphone. It's still seventy-four bucks and some change. And I need to hurry and send in my rebate, so that I could get fifty bucks.

OH! I got a date to the masquerade ball. Now all I have to do is find a dress. More than likely I will borrow, seeing as I don't have much money.

But seriously, Quizno's is now starting to really tick me off. I tell them the hours I can work, and they schedule me one day out of the whole week for three hours.

Rest assured, I will not be ballin' this Friday. I will be barely dribbling.

It's a sad realization, but I am a "poor college kid" so to speak. I'm gonna apply at the Navy Exchange. Prayfully they'll hire me there.

And I hate being on call. If you didn't schedule me for a day, please don't get mad when I made other plans. Because, I can't read minds you know. I'm not going to sit and twiddle my thumbs waiting by the phone so that I could get hours.

It's stressful, and the pay is lame. Seriously, I only got one check over one hundred bucks. Just one.
Quizno's isn't cutting it. I love the subs, and for the prices, you'd think we get paid a bit more... we do all this prep and crap, yet we barely get paid for it. At least I don't.

I'm  so excited for November 6th.

I haven't seen Motion City Soundtrack, in like, three years. And Anberlin, I've never seen. I've seen Mae once, not that impressed, but I support them, because they are after all... local.
Metro Station is good, but I'm really pumped for MCS and Anberlin.

It's gonna be so awesome.

I saw the guys from Cartel in the mall yesterday. I didn't talk to them or anything... maybe if I were a bigger fan I would've, but I didn't want to disrupt their MacArthur's Center shopping experience.

It's late and I have class at 11. God help me.. it's Philosophy, and I suppose it can broaden your horizons, once you get past the nonsense of it all.

Until the future... later days.

So Friday I got a cellphone. It's pretty neat, I got the sidekick ID. It's gnar. And then today I bought my Motion City Soundtrack ticket. So November 6th, I'm pretty much not going to class. I don't mean to come off as some weird fan-girl, but I mean, The Norva is right across the street from the mall, and I'm pretty sure, they don't want to spend all of their time at the Norva when there is a mall RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET! and I will be downtown, because TCC is adjacent to The Norva which means that it is also right across the street.

Now seeing this amazing and God sent opportunity, it would only make sense that I ditch Philosophy and Public Speaking, and figure out which stores that the band members of MCS/Anberlin/Mae/Metro Station would be.
I think I will have a better chance with MCS, just because I remember what they look like.

I'm still searching for a new job. A local drycleaner needs someone, so I'm going to call them tomorrow, and see if I can work there. I like Quiznos, but I'm just not being paid enough, and the shifts aren't even that long.

This past weekend we were literally (sort of) in the mountains. Well, when you went outside you can see the mountains and there were a heck of a lot of hills. But I felt myself getting sick, like, Thursday night/Friday morning, and I tried my best to avoid it, but that freezing mountain air at night and in the morning nearly killed me. Well, I'm exaggerating now, but it was cold, and I feel my throat starting to itch.
Hopefully I can fight this thing with Claritin, or something.

I haven't done any reading for Philosophy. I hate being such a procrastinator.

Until the future... later days.

I've been in school for about two weeks. I've barely studied like I need to. I know that I have a test coming up and I have to think of a thesis and something to do for a demonstration speech.

I might quit my job, because they won't give me any hours. I tell them the days I can work, and they schedule me two days out of a week. I only get about six hours a week, and the checks are lame. So I'm job hunting at the moment.

Blah dee dah.

Tomorrow I go to school.
Luckily this semester I don't go until 11:00 or some time like that.
It's good, I don't have to wake up so early. I'm actually really excited to be going back. Not so excited about not being able to drive yet.

I went to the thrift store Friday and bought five books. I finished two of them yesterday. I feel like I didn't have any time to read them, but obviously I did to read two books in three days. Gosh, I sound intensly nerdy right now... but seriously, Saturday I went to a wedding, Sunday was church, lunch, date, prayer night, and then I spent the night at The Palace with Christine and Kelley so that we could go to Busch Gardens that next day. Monday we spent the whole day at Busch Gardens and I didn't get home until really late, so I guess Tuesday I did nothing.

My job didn't schedule me this whole week. I bet they want me to come in tomorrow, but I can't... because I have to work. I think they might've fired me... but I didn't do anything wrong. oh well.

So tomorrow I have school, and I only have one class Tuesday/Thursday until September 3rd or something. I'm kinda stoked though.

Oh well.

So last night, I went to an amazing show. It was Dear and the Headlights, As Tall As Lions, and Mae.
I don't know, lately I've always been loving the opening bands better than the headliner. Okay, so I didn't like the songs I heard by Dear.. but they were so great live.

I kinda felt sorry for the one guy. First his guitar wasn't loud enough, I guess... and then he just fell out of his stool when playing the keyboards. He looked kinda frustrated, annoyed, and drunk. But I loved them, and then  As Tall As Lions came on, and I kinda frowned, because they were all playing different instruments. And they played this little thing and then quickly ran to their rightful positions.

Oh my goodness, they blew me away, they were so amazing. And the bass player is quite passionate, and I loved that about them. I bought two shirts and a c.d. And then I bought a Dear... tote bag.

Mae was a bit disappointing. I mean, I love them, because they're from my hometown so it was fun, but they weren't as good as ATAL. So we left early when they were still playing.

I wish I could've taken pictures, but camera's were not allowed. Too bad, I saw a bunch of people with camera's anyways.

Lame.

This week is gonna be busy. I'm sure of it.
Tomorrow I work for a little while, and then don't know what else. Sunday it's up to Rich-mond again for statewide church. And no to mention the Saturday before is my sisters birthday. I work Saturday. Oh, and then the wedding is that next saturday on the 18th. Also that Sunday is Busch Gardens and I'm supposed to find a date.

Thing is I don't know who to ask. Whitney comes back tomorrow. Amanda comes back next Thursday and then later on that night we go to see Mae. So exciting. Actually I'm just wasting time before I put some more songs on my ipod. It's a bunch of obscure weird sounding stuff.

I guess that's just the kind of mood I'm in. Currently listening to Xiu Xiu: Bog People. Great song. I'm tired it'll be three a.m. in less that 20 minutes, and I think I might have heartburn. I don't know. I'm ridiculously tired and the songs are finished. I think I'd let these new bands sing me to sleep. Most of the songs are slow-ish anyways, so it won't be so bad.